ummm .... diet not going so good, in fact diet not happening at all right now. I have some Other Stuff I have to deal with and sadly I don't seem to be able to deal with it without carbs'n'fat. Me bad, I know. Hopefully normal service will be resumed within the next week or so. And at least I've given up the nicotine gum hooray but that is making life a little more stressful for me.

Smoke-free since 1st Feb 03 - completely nic-free since 11 Feb '04
I have not smoked for one year, two months, two weeks, four days, 12 hours, 43 minutes and 50 seconds.
11088 cigarettes not smoked, £2,217.44 saved to spend on books instead of paid to evil death dealing tobacco companies.
Life saved to spend with new books: 5 weeks, 3 days, 12 hours, 0 minutes.

Bad things about visiting My Parents .... as already mentioned, my mum keeps the house well stocked with Bad Things (despite her and my dad always being allegedly on diets). If I don't eat them, she goes on about it. If I do eat them, she looks disappointed in me. See, my parents have always been on at me about my weight, for as long as I can remember. When I was a teenager, prob size 14 - 16 but very active (playing hockey, swimming, etc) they were on at me to lose weight. They've stopped Going On About It now, but I know what they think. I can tell by the way my mum as of always asking 'have you lost weight?' in a hopeful tone of voice. Course now I have actually lost some weight she doesn't feckin mention it. Feckin parents. And she still gave me a feckin easter egg ('just a little one') despite me telling her not to. Feck.

So yes I did eat too much chocolate and assorted crap. My Easter has been somewhere between being totally good and being terribly bad. Mainly good with patches of bad.

My sis gave O Finding Nemo vid instead of an egg. We have watched it every day for the last 4 days (we saw it at the cinema too). My new hero is Dory

I joined my first fan listing. I would explain why she' so fab but I can hear the video starting again so gotta go ......

Lost 3 lb this week, not reached my 'mini-goal' but that's not surprising because of the weight I put on last week. At least I've lost that 2lb and another 1 too yay.

We're off to my parents for the weekend. My mum will have house full of chocolate biscuits, creamy desserts, crisps, butter, chocolate, etc etc. I will just have to sit next to the fruit bowl all weekend.

We now have 2 filing cabinet drawers full of choccie eggs. 1 drawerful is O's and 1 for giving to various kids. Actually mostly those will be exchanges, so we will prob have the same net amount of choc come Sunday morning. I can hear it whispering to me ........

On the plus side, I cycled to town to get the eggs, so I've got some burnet calories banked. Hmmm ....

oh dear it's starting. The Easter chocco fest begins, as an egg arrives in the post for O this morning. First of many no doubt. Everyone I know who is likely to buy me choccie eggs, is under strict instructions not to. But they are still going to be showered upon my 4 yr old. Plus this afternoon I have to go out and buy stack of them (fair trade, natch) for various kids. The house will be full of chocolate. Heeeeellllppppppppppp mmmmeeeeeeeee ....

I've given up on FIAFI for now. I don't wanna sit quietly thinking bout stuff, I wanna eat crisps! Not very constructive, I know, but not feeling very constructive right now. Am doing my best to stick to the new 'don't eat too much crap and keep doing exercise' plan. Went for half hour bike ride last night, after O was in bed, cold and windy but the full moon was beautiful.

I have switched to reading Ray Mears' Outdoor Survival Handbook. I love Ray. My ultimate reward, if I do get myself to my target weight, is going to be a Woodlore 'Bushcraft for Beginners' Weekend. I will be queen of the birch-bark cup makers.

OK I have to face the fact I have ‘issues’ ™ with food, and that when I’m unhappy, depressed, whatever, I want to eat and eat and eat (and at the mo I am feeling quite low). So what to do? I could ignore it, grit my teeth, summon up an iron will power and vow never to eat more than 1750 cals a day ever again. Yeah right. I have the will power of a small slug with no will power. I could think feck it all and give up dieting and go on being fat and ‘happy’. Except I’m not happy being like this (on top of all the other unhappinesses I’ve got that manifest themselves as desires for Pringles).

So, what I think I’m going to try and do is … just do the best I can and not beat myself up over things going wrong sometimes. I will keep up the exercising, and will aim to eat sensibly most days, and keep on weighing myself, and see what happens. May not be ideal but it’s an improvement on what I was doing before.

I did do some exercise today, in fact I feel like I did a whole week's worth. Missed my Thursday belly dance class so went to class at diff venue, went by bike. 1 hr dancing plus 1hr 10 mins bike riding adds up to 1,230 cals burned and very very sore legs. Oh and I went swimming yesterday too but that was crap, only 20 lengths, my excuse is my stroke was all over the place hahah.

Hah. The FDA has written to the magic fat busting miracle pill pushers telling them to stop it

"These products give unfounded hope to people who are attempting to lose weight," Acting FDA Commissioner Lester Crawford said in a statement. .... The Web sites have 15 days to respond to the agency and outline their plans to remove the claims. If they do not, the FDA can seize the firms' supplies, impose fines and take other enforcement actions.

Good. Sue the arses of the bastards.

in other news: I wish to apply to marry Ali Slimani

for he makes rai dub fusion wooooooooooooooooo hooooooooooooo. I love you Mr Slimani and wish to have your rai-dub babies.

put on 2 lb. bollox. more l8r ....