Thursday, September 30, 2004


R got his PhD back from the printers and submitted today, just within the deadline. Hurrah. Now the wait for his viva, which will probably be in December. I know he'll pass it.

Today I saw the dedication of the thesis for the first time -
for love, for enjoyment, forever –
for C, for O, for future...

Arse Biscuits

1. Arse

The Pocket Oxford Dictionary (with RP pronunciation guide):
arse /a:s/[1] n. (US ass /æs/ [2])
coarse slang buttocks [old English]

In other words, yes you do pronounce the 'r' in arse - that's what makes it 'arse' not 'ass'.

Once you have mastered the use of 'arse', you might want to refer to this page to expand your knowledge of English as she is spoken in the modern vernacular.

[1] a: = arm
[2] æ = cat [3]
[3] spot the person who lives with a nearly-phd in linguistics

2. Biscuits

What do Americans mean when you talk about 'biscuits'? Proper biscuits (ie good old fashioned stiff upper lip spirit of the blitz British ones) are sweet and come in packets and form an ideal accompaniment to a nice cup of tea and a sit down. Biscuits for breakfast, biscuits with gravy on - what's that all about?

3. Arse Biscuits not work-friendly ;-)

more Fr Ted sounds here, including Mrs Doyle on swearing.

My sis and I have decided to train R and her boyf to say "That would be an ecumencial matter" should any questions of a religious nature arise. Two (very lapsed) Catholics in the bosom of our Scots Presybterian family. My uncle is a Church elder and best friends with the minister. My mother has a model of John Knox's house on display in the living room. Eeeep.

Latest Dr Gill news

Poor Dr Gill. That bad man at the gruaniad's "Bad Science" column is being mean to her again.

Tee Hee.

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

testing testing

testing this new-fangled 'post-via-email' thingy



I go through phases where things in my life are relatively under control. House not too messy, work not too behind, laundry not piling up, etc. When life's going like that, my eating goes good too, mostly. But when life gets like now, things wobble and spin out of control. The house is a mess, work's all to pot, hardly any clean clothes and eating habits a mess. Aaargh. Neither R nor I have had the time to keep on top of things lately. Poor R has been working flat out finishing off his PhD, late nights and early mornings, culminating in him not sleeping at all for 2 nights running. He finally got it all finished and ready to go the printers yesterday , so he got a proper night's sleep at last. With a bit of luck (* touches wood, avoids magpies, crosses fingers, wears lucky socks, waves to that nice Dr Wiseman off the telly *) the printer will get it bound in time for him to hand in tomorrow. Eeep.

in other news: I'd just like to say a quick Drink! Feck! Girls! to Marla

Sunday, September 26, 2004

Sunday Log

I wish I didn't leave things to the last minute and then have to rush at them in a carb-fueled panic.

    Breakfast: shreddies w. f-f milk (all out of any other kind)

    Lunch: big pile of crap

    Snack: biscuits

    Drinks: too much coffee, 1 x 750ml water


    bike: 20 mins bike ride to try and clear head

Daily Review
food ~ ; fruit ~ ; exercise ~ ; water ~ ; booze ~

Saturday, September 25, 2004

and now, the end is near

R is going to be finishing his PhD this week! After 4 years of hard work, he has to get it to the printers at the beginning of next week for it to be ready in time for his submission deadline. So, I will have even less puter time than usual this weekend (and I'm away all day on Monday). But from next week, the computer is all mine again bwahahaahahahahahahahahah.

Saturday Log

    Breakfast: shreddies w. s-s milk, banana

    Snack: Fruit & Fibre w. s-s milk

    Lunch: Feta & Melon

    Snack: soz sarnie (granary bread)

    Evening: curry with all bad things (poppadoms, naan bread, pilau rice - tho no lassi and no pudding and not too much booze), 1 bottle beer, 1 glass wine

    walking: morning mile

    cycling: 30 mins or so (emergency trip for extra paper and printer ink); 30 mins (round trip to curry house)

we're going to cycle to the curry house tonight, does that earn me a poppadom?

Daily Review
food ~ ; fruit ~ ; exercise ~ ; water ~ ; booze ~

Friday, September 24, 2004

Super Star

O got reception class Star of the Week award at school today, for always listening to the teachers, being helpful and getting on with his work. Spot the proud mum.

I told him that as Star of the Week, he could choose what we had for tea and offered to make his favourite lasagne. But he chose salad, with fruit salad for pudding. Oh and ice-cream with the fruit, just in case anyone was thinking he was Peter Perfect the Perfect Child. So that's what we had, salad (with some cheese) then fruit salad. And yes I had ice-cream which is Bad, but I still end the day in a much better way than I started it. Thanks to Star of the Week.

best laid plans

Buggrit. I've just got an email reminding me of long-standing arrangement to meet friends tomorrow night. For a curry. Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh. I can't cry off, it's to say bye-bye to a friend who is emigrating to Canada next month and will be our last chance to see her before she goes. I love curry but it means approx 373, 000 extra calories. OK well I suppose I can economise some by not having lassi, and passing on the popaddoms. I could even not have naan bread ... or have plain rice instead of pilau [1].... no, that's thinking the unthinkable. As is forgoing paneer if tis on the menu. Oh lordy, why I am so weak ... ?

handy curry glossary for the uninitiated

[1] not that I have 1 whole naan and 1 whole serving of rice to myself, I wish to make clear - R and I usually share them between us

Restless Legs

I read this article in the Gruaniad earlier this week, and it reminded me to blog about this. About 6 months ago I was having a lot of trouble sleeping. Not the usual kind of sleep problems I've had with my depression, but a whole new problem. I would be feeling really tired and wanting to sleep, but my legs were wide awake and feeling all kind of 'buzzy', and often I had to get up instead of keep lying there tossing and turning and twitching.

It seems to come and go, so it happens for 3 or 4 nights in a row (leaving me completely knackered) and then not for a while. It's very weird and uncomfortable when it does happen. Very annoyingly, it has come on during a time in my life when I'm doing healthy things - stopped smoking, eating better, drinking plenty of water and not much booze, regular exercise. Not fair! I tried cutting my caffeine intake right down (no coffee after lunch, no tea after 6 pm) but it made no difference.

So I went to see the doctor "I can't sleep, my legs are all restless". "Aha!" says Dr "you have Restless Legs Syndrome." Oh. Ok. Can't find a reason for it happening to me (it's a possible side effect of anti-depressants but I've been on these particular ones for a while and it hasn't caused any problems before, so we don't think it's that). I've got some pills to take when it does come on.

It sounds like a minor problem but when your legs feel weird as feck and you haven't slept for 3 nights running, it's not so minor.

Restless Legs Syndrome Foundation

Moment of Truth

Weighed myself this morning and I've gained 4 lb. Ick. Which means I've un-acheived my milestones. Ack. I know I said I wouldn't mind but I do. So entirely logically I go and eat a pile of crap instead of a proper breakfast. That makes sense dur. Looking on the bright side ...

... ummm ....

.... I am going to do my best to keep on going, and not beat myself up when things don't go entirely right. I'm going to try not to lose it completely, and to try to keep on doing things mostly right most of the time. As my doctor says, "it is better to be inadequate than totally bloody useless".

update: I now feel like crap as a result of all the crap I ate. Headache, bloated, funny tummy. Happens every time and I don't seem to learn. Dur.

Friday Log

    Breakfast: huge pile of fat'n'carb crap

    Lunck: breakfast (shreddies, banana)

    Tea: salad w. feta cheese, fruit salad w. ice-cream

    Snack: soz sarnie (should've been a piece of fruit oh well)

    Drinks: 2 ltr diet irn-bru; 2 mugs coffee (no milk); 1 x 750 ml water; 1 options; 2 glasses red wine

    walking: morning mile

Daily Review
food ~ no comment; fruit ~ 3; exercise ~ walking; water ~ 0.75 l; booze ~ 2 glasses wine

Thursday, September 23, 2004

Another reason

Further to my rant about the evils of bottled water, I read this article in the gruaniad about what happens to plastic bottles sent for 'recycling'. Another reason to say n'eau to bottled water.

Back to Normal

Back home after my mini-break. It was a nice break, even tho I had to work while I was there. It was so lovely to meet up with Trin and have nice long chats with her. Abby and Danz are lovely, and so are her cats (except when they bite your toes in the middle of the night).

I did eat lots of 'bad' things and drank lotsa booze, and didn't do any exercise. I know the scales will be up on Friday. But I don't mind (too much). It was a break and I needed a break and some fun more than I needed to stick to my healthy eating programme for a few days. What I have to do now is remind myself that was the exception, not the rule, and get back to on track with normal eating and exercise regime. Made a start by going to aquarobics last night, and will start food logging again today.

Other news: in the 3 days I was away, O has learnt to read! He can recognise all the words in his 'my first reading book' book from school. "I can help" "We can help". Gosh. He knew his alphabet and his letter sounds before, could recognise his own name and signs like 'Post Office' and was thoroughly drilled in Jolly Phonics in nursery. But still, I'm amazed and impressed (with him and with school) that he can read words less than 2 weeks into starting Big School.

Thursday Log


    breakfast: asda shreddies w. s-s milk, banana

    lunch: 2 pitta breads - 1 w. veggi sausage, 1 w. feta & cucumber; pistachio nuts

    snack: banana, raisins

    tea: veggi-burger, sweetcorn

    snack: sausage sarnie

    drinks: 1 mug coffee (no milk); 1 options; 2 x 750 ml water; 1 mug tea; 2 glasses red wine


    Belly Dancing

Daily Review
food ~ not bad, could've done without the pistachios tho; fruit ~ 3 (bananas, raisins - we've run out of all other fruit, must go to greengrocer tomorrow); exercise ~ belly dancing; water ~ 1.5 l; booze ~ 2 glasses wine

Tuesday, September 21, 2004


safe socks doesn't mean no socks
it just means use your imagination

we talked about all that stuff and about socks, too.

i :heart: stipey toe-socks

The h2g2 guide to the Joy of Socks

right, I'll just have another vodka, then I'm off to email Trin's stalker bwahahahhahahhah :feck off perv:

which reminds me :sings: :quiffs:

I'm a Leningrad Cowgirl,
Raising Cattle on the Steppes
Won't you pour me another Vodka
'Cause I'm drinking to forget

play that funky balalaika, white boy

:spills wodka on keyboard: :goes to bed:

normal is as normal does

Still here in the deepest south at Trin's, and she's taking good care of me. Last Friday, she told me she'd got some chocolate pringles in for me coming. My first thought was "yay!cow!yay!cow!" all mixed up together. My next thought was "hang on, shurely shome mishtake. Today is Friday and I'm not getting there till Tuesday and she's bought the treats already? what's the point of that, she'll just have to go out and buy some more on Monday when she eats them as is bound to happen". But no. Two packets choccie pringles all present and correct on Tuesday evening. Weirdos, I thought, that's not normal surely?

But I'm beginning to suspect maybe it is. I think maybe normal people can have 'bad' foods in their cupboards without hearing it always whispering to them and knowing that maybe not today, and maybe not tomorrow, but some day the demons will strike and they'll be shovelling every last scrap of badness into their mouth as quickly as possible.

I have never (so far) had to think of how to explain to my child that the Easter Bunny hasn't come without admitting that I ate all the easter eggs in a chocholat frenzy on a miserable Saturday-before-Easter night, but I completely understand how Victoria Wood found herself in that situation. Likewise the knitting needle/jellybaby incident. I've done equally bizarre, desperate things when the need to eat till it stops hurting hits.

Hello, my name's Clarrie and I'm a compulsive eater.

Other news: Trin forgot to mention how when we started watching Toughest Pubs in Britain 3, they were featuring a pub in Manchester, and she was pleased to remark on that fact. Then the Brizzul pub came on and it was at the end of her road [nelsonmuntz] Haw! Haw! [/nelsonmuntz]. Ah, the joy of schadenfreude.

Other other news: Trin's girls are complete sweeties. Danz has given up her Pink Princess canopy bed for me, and they brought me tea and fruit toast in bed this morning. Ta girls :-) There's lots of pink in this house, it's ace. I wanted to paint our kitchen Barbie Pink but I was over-ruled. I am now plotting a Hot Pink bathroom instead.

Monday, September 20, 2004

made it

Arrived chez Trin in one piece. Unlike my diet which is lying on the floor smashed into myriad small pieces. Do I care? No. I don't care that I'm eating 'bad' foods while I'm here - it's only 3 days then back to real life. I do however mind that I ate crap while I was on the train, which was pure boredom eating. I will re-focus on eating right when I get back home.

I'm off ...

... to Trin-ville for a few days. There may or may not be posting.

Sunday, September 19, 2004

Red Mist

Instead of walking in a high, beautiful place, today I mostly been having a crappy day. This year we have not been walking much at all, I suppose because R has been spending most weekends working on his PhD. Once he has it submitted, hopefully there will be some good autumn weather for walking in.

Could not wake up this morning - went back to bed after breakfast "just for a lie down while I listen to The Archers omnibus" and woke up after 1. Then had to face shopping hell in Asda. Asda is usually bad on a Sunday afternoon but this afternoon was like Christmas eve and New Year's eve rolled into one. For the Students Have Returned.

I know it is hypocritical of me to get angry about students. I used to be one myself, and R still is one. But Manchester is a much pleasanter place during the university holidays. And we have been over-run by new student accommodation, all of it built as cheaply as possible and hence an architectural eyesore (apparently, the traditional halls of residence don't cut it in the modern student accommodation market place, as they can't provide the en-suite rooms and on-site gyms demanded by today's discerning student). Plus it is an important part of the professional Mancunian persona to 'feckin hate feckin students' (adopts Liam-Gallagher-esque accent).

They completely invaded Asda this afternoon. I'm not sure which was worse - the ones who were in a gaggle of 4 or 5 and had one trolley each (ffs could they not see that there were, as a result, no trolleys to be had anywhere?), and wandered round looking as if they'd never been in a supermarket before in their lives, or the ones who were shopping with mummy, setting them up for the new term 'look Timothy, this is an egg, you like eggs don't you? you remember I showed you how to boil them?' Look missus, the day Little Timmy starts uni is not the best time to start trying to teach him cookery. Particularly not when you're blocking the aisle so I can't get passed and I'm trying to do my weekly shop for my family aargh. Least bad were the ones who had no need of a trolley as they were only buying a new pillow and a six-pack of lager.

The place was stripped bare of the necessities of life (tinned tomatoes, pasta, baked beans, lager) and queues at the checkouts snaked into next week. If it hadn't been for the fact I'm off to Bristol for 3 days tomorrow, and can't leave O and R without food [1], I'd've turned round and walked out. Things got so bad I put 2 packets of pringles in my trolley (2 packets cos there was 2 for £2 deal on). By the time I'd got to the end of the store, I put them back and swapped them for 2 small bags of crisps, which I shared with O later. Still not good, but better than it could've been. We won't mention the cake we had at tea-time. O had a friend round for tea, and he brought chocolate cake he and his mum had made earlier. Yes I ate some. O and his friend made their own starters, Tiger Sushi a la Big Cook, Little Cook. He's not gonna be like Little Timmy oh no.

Tiger Sushi Posted by Hello

[1] yes of course R is perfectly capable of shopping, but he is busy trying to finish the PhD and going shopping is something he could do without right now

Where I should've been today ...

I'm a rambler, I'm a rambler from Manchester way
I get all my pleasure the hard moorland way
I may be a wage slave on Monday
But I am a free man on Sunday

Kinder Scout Posted by Hello

Today is the first day of the Right to Roam. The fight for this right started decades ago, when working class people, slaving week long (often a 6 day week) in factories and mills, demanded access to the beautiful high places during their free time. But most of the beautiful high places were privately owned and access was not permitted to ordinary people. So ordinary people fought for it, and were often beated up or imprisoned for it, most famously on the mass trespass on Kinder Scout in April 1932. Ewan (father of Kirsty) McColl wrote The Manchester Rambler for the occassion.

Kinder Mass Trespass Memorial Plaque, Hayfield  Posted by Hello

Never tell me that direct action does not work. The establishment of Britain's first national park, the Peak District national park created in 1951, was as a direct result of the right to roam movement. The fight for a legal 'right to roam' across the whole country has taken till now to be won. Its establishment follows in a direct line from those men and woman who wouldn't let gamekeepers and landlords keep them from their right to enjoy England's beautiful places. Without them, we wouldn't have that right today.

Sunday Log


    Breakfast: 2 bowls muesli w. s-s milk, banana

    Lunch: n/a

    Snack: crisps (2 pkts shared with O)

    Tea: omlette, chips, corn-on-cob, cake

    Drinks: 1 mug coffee (no milk); 2 mugs tea (s-s milk)


Daily Review
food ~ ; fruit ~ ; exercise ~ ; water ~ ; booze ~

Saturday, September 18, 2004

Saturday Log

This weekend is gonna be like last weekend ie not much computer time for me while R beavers away with his Grate Thorts. Plus I have to go shopping this afternoon. I don't like shopping much anyways, even less so when I have smallboy in tow and have to pay large sums of money for shoes for him grrr.

I'm trying to get back on track today, tho I feel like eating my way through everything bad I can find. Went for a walk this morning in spite of the rain. I don't know if this is good (keeping on track) or bad (punishing myself for being 'bad' yesterday). Ah well, just keep putting one foot in front of the other ...


    breakfast: 2 weetabix with skimmed milk (it's still ick but I might get used to it), banana

    snack: apple & cheese

    lunch: chickenless burger, beans, angel delight, plums

    tea: tortellini (lots) w. pesto sauce

    snack: mueseli with s-s milk

    drinks: 1 mug coffee (no milk); 2 mug tea (s-s milk); 1 x 750 ml water; 1 x options; 2 glasses red wine


    walking: morning mile

Daily Review
food ~ not so good ; fruit ~ 3; exercise ~ walking; water ~ 0.75 l; booze ~ 2 glasses wine

Friday, September 17, 2004

it's all gone horribly wrong

Today I had to leave the safety of my home-office and go into the big bad world of real offices. It was bad and there was Cake. Things didn't get much better when I got home.

Serves me right for tempting fate by mocking the scalegods, over on Yvonne's blog. Scalegod started getting at me this morning. Weigh-in day and no change. No up but no down either. Grrr. Also scalegods in league with the Lady of the TapeMeasure - no cms lost either. So I went and ate cake, came home, ate chips [1] and drank cava. That was so not a good plan. Dur me.

[1] that's chipped potatoes, not potato chips

Thursday, September 16, 2004

big girls can play dressing up, too

When I was out yesterday, I saw a skirt that looked good for dancing in. I've been thinking about getting some kind of outfit to dress up in for belly dancing (no, not that kind of costume). Not that you have to dress up, normal clothes are fine, I just thought it might be fun. And a change from the not particularly exciting, mainly utilitarian, clothes I usually wear. So I bought the skirt. And then, when I was at the market, I fell in love with a red and gold and sparkly scarf, so I bought that, too. Looking forward to wearing them tonight.

 Posted by Hello

Speaking of the market reminds me to rant about fruit and veg. We mostly buy ours from a stall on the market, but t'other day we'd run out so I bought a punnet of nectarines in the supermarket. They reminded me why we never buy our fruit there. The nectarines were rock hard, and they have managed to stay that way while going off at the same time. Aarrrrgh. Is it any wonder people don't eat much fruit and veg when supermarkets sell us such under-ripe tasteless crap instead of the real stuff.

Thursday Log


    breakfast: shreddies & skimmed milk (I finished all the semi last night. Skimmed wasn't completely horrid, maybe I could get used to it ... Jude sez it's what all the kewl kids are having), banana

    snack: peanut butter in pitta bread (I think I'm going to have to give up peanut butter, even if it is sugar-free)

    lunch: chickpea & feta salad

    afternoon: pear

    tea: can't remember now ...

    drinks: 3 mug coffee (no milk); 1 can diet irn bru; 2 mug tea (w. skimmed milk);2 x 750 ml water; 1 options


    walking: Morning Mile
    Belly Dancing

Daily Review
food ~ ; fruit ~ ; exercise ~ ; water ~ ; booze ~

why real food is better than snack food: reason no. 3876

when it's 1.30 am and you can't sleep and you're mooching thro the cupboards in search of something to eat, you might have a cupboard full of ingredients but you can't actually be arsed to cook anything. It's fruit or shreddies or nowt. Worse luck. It's at time like these you really need those empty fat'n'carbs calories ...

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

If you're going to invade parliament ...

.... do it with style and for a cause worth fighting for. Abseiling Lesbians Against the Clause [1] yes, 'Real' Countryside Alliance no.

Perhaps the Countryside Alliance should join the unions in campaigning for a higher minimum wage. ... The alliance campaigns to stamp out rural poverty — would its supporters vote for a redistributive tax regime that might go some way towards making good, domestically produced food available to the mass of the population?

In the end, the Conservative Party will be the only beneficiaries of the artificial divide that they seem hell-bent on creating between "townies' and country folk.

read more of Billy Bragg on hunting and rural economies.

[1] I used to have a badge with that on, I'm gutted I lost it. I still have some other 'Stop the Clause' memorablia, tho, as well as my I think I'm heterosexual ... but it might be just a phase badge.

Going back to my roots

In a couple of weeks, my gran will be 90. A surprise-ish celebration is planned (she knows her children are going to be there, but not her grandchildren, great-grandchildren and other relatives). So, we'll be spending a few days in the ancestral homelands [1]. R has never been before (tho me and O visited when he was a baby, and I've been a couple of times since for funerals). My sis and her boyf are going to be going, too.

My mum is a bit worried that R and sis-boyf may need a phrase book to understand the local patois. R will be fine, him and all his family speak a similar way (with many of the same dialect words - even O knows what his oxters are, even if his teachers don't). It's sis-boyf I'm really worried about. He speaks fluent Black Country. His chances of understanding, and being understood by, my relatives are virtually nil. Which may actually be a good thing, my uncle's sense of 'humour' being what it is.

I'm more worried about the eating aspects of it. The birthday meal itself is not a prob - it's a posh hotel that will have reasonable choices. It's the rest of the weekend. We'll be eating out all the time, which is never good for diets. Also we'll be visiting relatives and being presented with tea, cakes and biscuits at regular intervals. I will have to come up with a plan ...

[1] where my parents are from, tho I was born and raised in Engerland

tomorrow is another day

Last night's feeling cr*p was equal parts lurgy and feeling-sorry-for-self, I think (and no Stephen, you didn't make it worse). Still feel a bit bleurgh this morning but have done my Morning Mile (tho probably only because we'd run out of coffee so I walked to buy more). On my second mug now and hoping my energy levels will pick up shortly.

Wednesday Log


    Breakfast: banana, shreddies w. s-s milk

    Snack: peanut butter on toast

    Lunch: chickpea & feta salad in pitta bread

    Afternoon snack: crisps

    Tea: toretellini with pesto sauce, melon

    Insomnia induced snack-attack: shreddies w. s-s milk

    Drinks: 2 mug coffee (no milk); 2 x 750 ml water; 2 mug tea (s-s milk); 3 options


    Walking - 25 mins (1 mile) x 2; 0.5 mile; (my pedometer is playing up I think, it says I walked 7 miles today!)

Daily Review
food ~ errr ... kind of lost it with crips and peanut butter on toast - but not too lost; fruit ~ 2; exercise ~ walking, aquarobics; water ~ 1.5 l; booze ~ 0

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

excuses, excuses

I didn't exercise at all. Not even my video. I feel like cr*p and I'm going to bed.

Wimping out

I haven't been swimming yet this week and if I don't go tonight, I won't go before Friday. I wimped out Sunday night and last night partly because the weather was foul and partly because I thought I had a bad throat coming on. Sounds pathetic, I know, but I am very 'prone' to sore throats and can get them really bad.

I wish I lived in America so I could have a strep throat but instead I am stuck with boring british sore throats of the 'take paracetamol [1] and drink plenty of liquids' variety. So far this approach, combined with lying on the sofa watching tv, has warded off any impending badness. Can I justify it for another night? Put another way, can I justify another night on the sofa? Maybe if I compromise by staying in and not going out in nasty cold wet windy autumnalness, but doing my belly dance video at home?

[1] paracetamol = acetaminophen/tylenol

what she said

Another moment of revalation, when another blogger expresses beautifully what I've been thinking but haven't found the words to say it right. This time, it's Marla @ Someday is Now [1].
You simply cannot lose a significant amount of weight if you hate yourself. ... Losing weight is HARD. ... Because it's so difficult, mentally and physically, you have to love yourself a great deal to believe you're worth the effort, the time, and the cost.

She said alot more than this, it is a wonderful post, go read the rest.

[1] I also love the title of this blog. Too often we talk about 'someday'. Someday I'll stop smoking/lose weight/get fit/write a novel/spend more time with the people I love. We should make 'someday' now.

The birds and the bees and the cats

O has become rather obsessed lately with when 'our baby' is going to be born [1]. He seems to think all mummies have a baby in their tummies at all times. Suddenly it occurs to him to ask 'do you have to eat the baby?' so I decide to take our 'birds and bees' conversation to the next level, and introduced the egg/seed concept. Next day he asks R "When are you going to give mummy a seed? She has an egg in her tummy, the cats gave it to her". Umm no they didn't, the cats don't actually have anything to do with it "Yes they do! the cats gave mummy the egg, they did they did!" Time to see if they've got Mummy Laid An Egg in the library, I think.

Other news: I have become addicted to options hot chocolate drinks. Yummy chocolatey yumminess for 40 cals woo yes please! Seriously, it does really deal with a chocolate craving. I'm loving belgian choc, turkish delight, choc orange and irish cream flavours (not keen on choc mint but that's a flavour I've never liked much). Great excitement, new 'limited edition' choca mocha flavour sighted in asda this morning. I've just tried it, it's vile. I'm off to make a nice mug of irish cream instead.

[1] correct answer:- 9 months+ after daddy gets a proper job

Tuesday Log


    Breakfast: sausage sandwich, toast w. peanut butter, banana

    Lunch: feta & chickpea salad in pita bread, apple

    Tea: (sounds worse than it was) ~ chips (reduced fat oven chips), fried egg (fried with frylight), sausage (veggie frankfurter), beans; custard (lo-fat sugar-free) and stewed fruit (home made, no added sugar)

    Snack: apple & peanut butter

    Drinks: 1 mug coffee (no milk); 3 x 750 ml water; 2 mug tea (s-s milk); 2 options


    Walking - 25 mins (1 mile);

Daily Review
food ~ umm, ok-ish; fruit ~ 4; exercise ~ walk - wimped out of doing anything else; water ~ 2.25 l; booze ~ 0 (but need medicinal hot whiskey

Monday, September 13, 2004

Note to self:

Must be Good Gurl (eating- & exercise-wise) this week. Next week I'm visiting la Trin and she's already threatening me with pizza and chocolate and booze. Heh.

Morning Mile

Since I started my walking challenge, I have walked every day. Mostly, I am finding it easiest to fit in walking after dropping O at school in the morning. Walking from school to the park, once round the park and back home is about a mile. This morning I walked a bit further because I had to go to pick up a prescription from the doctors, on the other side of the park. I think, I hope, I will be able to keep up doing a walk every day, and also walking instead of cycling for local errands. At least I will while the weather's nice. When Manchester falls back on to default setting (rainy with more rain), I might not be so keen.

Monday Log


    Breakfast: shreddies w. s-s milk, banana, 2 slices w/meal toast w. peanut butter

    Lunch: eggs floretine (home-made this time so no cream or butter), tangerine

    Tea: pasta with tomato sauce & veggie sausage w. a little cheese, melon

    Drinks: 2 mug coffee (no milk); 2 mug tea (w. s-s milk); 2 x 750 ml water; 2 options


    Walking - 35 mins (1.5 mile);

Daily Review
food ~ ok; fruit ~ 3 (banana, tangerine, melon); exercise ~ walking; water ~ 1.5 l; booze ~ 0

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Sunday Log

Sorry for the dull what-i-ate-today posts only this weekend - R is hogging the computer to get his phd finished. Quick 'omg' moment from today's paper: omg, not Wendy Craig!


    Breakfast: fruit & fibre w. s-s milk, banana

    Lunch: poached egg w. w/meal toast, tangerine

    Afternoon snack: apple & peanut butter

    Tea: spinach lasagne (featuring low fat white sauce a la Delia), sugar-free butterscotch angel delight w. banana

    Drinks: 1 mug coffee (no milk), 1 x 750 ml water; 2 mug tea (w. s-s milk);


    Walking - 30 mins (1.15 mile) & 20 mins; 20 mins bike ride;

Daily Review
food ~ ok; fruit ~ 3.5 (1.5 banana, apple, tangerine; exercise ~ walking + bike ride; water ~ 0.75 l; booze ~ 0

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Saturday Log


    Breakfast: asda shreddies w. s-s milk, banana

    Lunch: spicy lentil & tomato soup, w/meal bread, banana

    Afternoon snack: pkt hula-hoops badness

    Tea: Special Fried Rice (rice w. vegetables & eggs)

    Evening snack/bingette: 2 bowls shreddies

    Drinks: 2 mug coffee (no milk), 1 x 750 ml water; 1 mug tea (w. s-s milk); 1 options


    Walking - ?? mins (1 mile) & ?? mins (0.5 mile), at small child pace (with frequent stops to commune with slugs, beetles, etc); 4.69 miles walked in total today; 'swimming' with 0

Daily Review
food ~ OK-ish but not brilliant - crisps and mini-binge on cereal - felt hungry all day; fruit ~ 2 banana; exercise ~ walking & swimmming with O; water ~ 0.75 l; booze ~ 0

Friday, September 10, 2004

You know you're getting old when ...

... in the past week you have voluntarily listened to Radio 2 [1], Classic FM [2] and Chorley FM Century FM. Help me, I'm turning into my parents [3].

[1] and not just to Jonathon, Dermot, Mark & Mark
[2] tho I do draw the line at Simon Bates, even if his mum did teach me to horse ride
[3] also I seem to have a compulsion to make footnotes to my posts, I think maybe I have caught some kind of academic annotation bug from R

Friday Log


    Breakfast: asda shreddies w. s-s milk, banana

    Lunch: feta cheese, apple, banana

    Tea: cheese omlette, oven chips, sweetcorn, melon

    Evening snack: aside shreddies w. s-s milk, banana

    Drinks: 2 mug coffee (no milk), 1 x 750 ml water, 1 x tea (w. s-s milk), 2 x options


    Walking - 20 mins (1 mile); 2 x 30 mins (2.6 miles in total) with small child in tow; according to the pedometer I have walked 6.47 miles in total today wooo.

Daily Review
food ~ ok; fruit ~ 5 (3 banana, apple, melon); exercise ~ 80 mins (20 mins 'fast' walking and 60 mins ambling); water ~ .75 l; booze ~ 0

Friday weigh-in & weekly review

Lost 2 lb and hit my mini-goal of losing 5% of my starting weight woooo. The week's gone pretty well, I think. Comparing it with the plan:

Food: Eating hasn't got out of control (except for the mini-roll incident), so I seem to not have slid down into that blackhole of eating that was beckoning last week. I've eaten my 3 pieces of fruit a day on 5 days out of 7, and drunk my water target 5 days out of 7.

Exercise: I've done exercise on 5 days out of 7, including swim, aquarobics, belly dancing ie exactly to plan wooo. I took O swimming twice.

This month's challenge: O has been back at school 3 days and so far I've walked at least 30 mins each day. Meeting my walking goals has been aid by 2 things: getting my new pedometer and the fact that the pedal fell off my bike on Wednesday.

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Mixing pop and politics

Somehow, I haven't listened to Dick Gaughan's music for a long, long time. I don't know how this happened - apart from loving his work, I have so many fond memories bound up with him and his music.

The first time I saw him live was at the Mull of Kintyre Music Festival. He had to fight to be heard above the people at the back of the hall who were chatting amongst themselves, passing time till Capercaillie came on. Me, I was blown away by Dick.

Next up, me and C went to the Isle of Skye on holiday. We got fed up of the tapes we had in the car by the time we got there, so we headed to a music shop in Portree for new ones, and one of ones we bought was Handful of Earth. I have fond memories of listening to this while driving round the beauty of Skye. Somewhile later, he was playing at Band on the Wall, and we had such a brilliant evening. I'd had to talk C into going, she was a bit worried it would be too much like finger-in-the-ear folkiness. She was glad she went (not a finger in the ear or arran jumper to be seen) and after the performance had finished, me and C sat and talked so long, the staff all had their coats on and had to tell us to leave.

My fondest Dick Gaughan memory of all is the next time I saw him at BotW. C couldn't make it, but I arranged to go with an old friend I didn't get to see much. She said she'd bring along her new flat mate. Her new flat mate was R, and that's how me met. His birthday was not long after that, and I gave him a copy of Call It Freedom, which I think remains my favourite Dick Gaughan album (tho I think my favourite song is No Cause for Alarm, on Sail On). Almost exactly a year later, for our 1st anniversary, we saw Dick Gaughan again, at the first Raise Your Banners! festival in Sheffield.

(If you're thinking the name's familiar but you can't remember where from, you might be thinking of his Red Flag duet with Billy Bragg on the Internationale ep. Billy Bragg also covered his song Think Again on the Help Save the Youth of America ep).

Dick Gaughan. Singer, songwriter, Scot, web designer, unreconstructed socialist, and the man responsible for me meeting R. Is it any wonder I love him and his music?

I'm going for a walk

My 'new' (from ebay) pedometer with radio arrived this morning and I'm off to try it out. Expect mind numbingly dull posts about the number of steps I've walked for the next few days, till the novelty wears off.

Thursday Log

    Breakfast: asda shreddies [1], banana, 1 slice wholemeal toast with peanut butter

    Lunch: pitta bread with chickpea & feta salad & cucumber, tangerine, pear (nasty hard pear boo)

    Tea: last of the chickpea etc salad, carrots, peas, potatoes

    Evening snack: apple & s-f peanut butter

    Drinks: 2 mug coffee (no milk), 3 x 750 ml water, 2 x turkish delight options

Daily Review
food ~ ok; fruit ~ 4 (banana, tangerine, pear, apple); exercise ~ belly dancing + 45 mins walking; water ~ 2.25 l; booze ~ 0

My walking challenge has been kick-started by the fact that the pedal fell of my bike, so I have to walk more till I can get it fixed.

[1] for left-pondish readers, shreddies are like Wheat Chex, I think. 'real' shreddies are made by nestle boo.

Because you're worth it?

Now for the science bit .... gruaniad 'Bad Science' column on cosmetic company claims for their products. Viva Ben Goldacre!

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

Wednesday Log

At bleedin' last, blogger is letting me publish posts again. And yes I know the code's borkified, this is due to an inept attempt to add blogrolling. I'll fix it later(ish). Right now I have more important things to do ie paint my toe-nails for belly dancing tomorrow. I'm thinking silvery-blue with sparkly bits ...

    Breakfast: fruit & fibre w. s-s milk, banana

    Lunch: chickpea & feta salad w. cucumber in pitta bread, 3 plums

    Snack: dates & nuts

    Tea: spinach & ricotta tortellini w. pesto sauce, chocolate mini-roll

    Evening snack: more mini-rolls eep

    Drinks: 2 mug coffee (no milk); 2 mug tea (w. s-s milk); 2 x 750 ml water; choc-organge options

Daily Review
food ~ bad. bad mini-rolls bad bad bad; fruit ~ 2 (banana, plums); exercise ~ aquarobics + 40 mins walking; water ~ 1.5 l; booze ~ 0

Where did my baby go?

My baby started Big School today. How did that happen? How did this little thing ...

O, 4 days old Posted by Hello

.... get to be going to school already?

He was so excited about wearing his 'uniform' of grey school trousers and polo shirt, and seeing his friends again, and going into a new class. "I go to primary school now, not playgroup" he announced several times at breakfast. I wonder if he'll be so excited when I pick him up this afternoon?

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

ebay update

as Jude knows, I do tend to come over all Corporal Jones in a crisis. Or even just a mild inconvenience. Email from ebay arrived, reset password, bit, outbid. Ah well.

grrrrr @ ebay

Grrrrrr. I wanna bid on summat on ebay that expires today. I haven't used ebay in so long, I've forgotten my password (curses to making difficult-to-crack passwords for they are also difficult-to-remember). So I go through the ebay 'help me I'm stoopid' questions, ebay says it's sent me an email and all i have to do now is click on the link in the email. NO YOU HAVEN'T SENT ME AN EMAIL. I tried again. STILL NO EMAIL. GRRRRRRRR.

More aaaaaaaaaaaaaargh ggggggggggggrrrrrr. I tried to register again. It says I can't because I'm already registered. YES I KNOW I AM BUT YOU WON'T SEND ME AN EMAIL AAAAAAAAAAAAARGH

Yet further grrrrrrrr. Tried to contact ebay customer services using their web based form. It's not working. Feckers.

Tuesday Log

    Breakfast: fruit & fibre with s-s milk, banana

    Lunch: pear, nectarine & feta cheese, dates & nuts

    Afternoon snack: apple & peanut butter

    Tea: spicy lentil & tomato soup, w/meal bread, salad, nectarine

    Evening snack: popcorn

    Drinks: 1 mug coffee (no milk); 2 mug tea (s-s milk); 2 x options; 1 x 750 ml water

Daily Review
food ~ eek, bit treat-heavy again boo, but been in munchy snacky mooching thro the cupboards looking for food mood :( ; fruit ~ 5 pieces (2 nectarines, pear, banana, apple); exercise ~ 0; water ~ 0.75 l; booze ~ 0

sincerest form of flattery ...

Nicole @ Anonymous Fat Woman posted her virtual models and I thought wooo I want one I want one I want one! So I got one and it's here and also on the sidebar. I plan on updating her monthly.

Monday, September 06, 2004

Going Swimmingly

So we went swimming this morning. Again. O's friend N came round to play and said he was going later, O was desperate to go with him so I agreed and we went too. Major breakthrough in O's swimming development - he took his feet off the bottom of the pool! Wooo. First time he's ever done that, first real 'swimming' (even if only for a couple of splashes and with arm-bands on). He has some confidence in water now, and will go under water (holds his nose, closes his eyes, ducks under). Not bad for a boy who was scared of the water for quite a long time (despite having been swimming since he was a baby). For him now to be wanting to go swimming, and starting to learn to swim, is great. I bought him a huge ice-cream sundae in the cafe as a reward, while I ate eggs florentine (ok so I should've had soup but ... ). I don't usually use food as a reward, but I so wanted to treat him today.

Monday Log

The food logging is here to stay, for the time being at least. It seems to really help me stay focused - for example, yesterday after swimming we went to the paper shop. I wanted crisps. Yes I did want them want them want them. Then I thought about having to come home and post that I'd had crisps. Decided it was only worth it for the best crisps in the world. Which I thought that newsagent sold heh. Turns out they don't boo. But rather than settle for inferior potato products, I bought that cocktail of obscure ingredients that is snack-a-jacks. Half the taste but half the calories. It is probably A Good Thing that the best crisps in the world are not as ubiquitous as Walkers.

    Breakfast: banana, grapes

    Lunch: eggs florentine, 3 spoons of O's ice-cream sundae

    Afternoon snack: dates, brazils, almonds

    Dinner: pasta with tomato sauce, veggie sausages and a little cheese, soya chocolate pudding & banana

    Evening snack: more dates & nuts

    Drinks: 2 mug coffee (no milk); 2 mug tea (s-s milk); 1 x 750 ml water; 1 turkish delight flavour options

Daily Review
food ~ hmm, bit treat-heavy and must watch out for eating too many dates; fruit ~ 3 pieces (2 banana, grapes); exercise ~ swimming with O + belly dance video; water ~ 0.75 l; booze ~ 0

Sunday, September 05, 2004

(un)conditional love?

My son starts big school on Wednesday. Today I read this article by psychologist Oliver James in the Observer. I am going to cut it out and pin it up on my notice board and never forget what it says.

parents can easily forget that the point of education is to create fulfilled, creative adults, not exam-fodder. If they make love conditional on performance, it is a recipe for depression.

Took me a lot of hard work with my own psychologist to figure out that that's probably where my depression stems from, at least in part - my parents' love being conditional upon me being a good girl, doing well at school, doing as I should, etc. I'm doing my damnedest to make sure my son knows our love for him is unconditional. A while back I bought him this book, it's what we read on days when things haven't gone right and he's been in trouble and I've been shouty ....

No Matter What by Debi Gliori
 Posted by Hello

Small said
"I'm a grim and grumpy little Small
and nobody loves me at all"
"Oh Small" said Large "Grumpy or not,
I'll always love you, no matter what"

OK happier things now: today has been lovely and hot. Took O swimming this morning, spent this afternoon sitting on the balcony reading the papers. This ...
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... is my lovely balcony vegetable patch, from where we got the runner beans we had for tea tonight. There are loads of green tomatoes, so fingers crossed the weather stays hot through September so they ripen. And more fingers crossed for my 1 pumpkin to ripen (and not fall off on to the head of a passer by).

Sunday Log

    Breakfast: asda shreddies w s-s milk, banana

    Shivery-bite: 1 pkt snack-a-jacks & can diet coke

    Lunch: Chickpea & feta salad with cucumber in pita breads, apple

    Tea: Cheese omlette, oven chips (not very many), sweetcorn, runner beans (freshly picked from our balcony woo)

    Evening snack: apple & peanut butter

    Drinks: 1 mug coffee (no milk), 1 can diet vanilla coke, 2 x 750 ml water, 3 mugs tea (w. s-s milk)

Daily Review
food ~ not bad but could be better (bad snack-a-jacks bad chips tut); fruit ~ 3 pieces (banana, 2 apples); exercise ~ swimming with O + 30 mins swimming; water ~ 1.5 l; booze ~ 0

Saturday, September 04, 2004

What I'll be watching on Thursday night

Wooo Hoooo Ray's Back!  Posted by Hello

Ray Mears' Bushcraft, BBC2, Thursday, 8pm - 9pm

The return of the Mears-Meister knocks BBC1's Fat Nation into a cocked hat. hah. My ulitmate reward, when I get to my goal weight, is gonna be a Ray Mears Woodlore Weekend.

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Chocolate Pringles: narrow escape

aaargh they are after me! At the supermarket today they had put up a stand near the main door, and were offering free samples of the dreaded choccie pringles. I ran away very very fast ...


So there's this article in the paper about how councils are cracking down on the evul of pirate radio. I'm betting Manchester City Council will be in court soon getting asbos against pirates round here, too. Boo. One of my favourite stations is Irie FM, 99.7 FM, a pirate. Here's a handy Guide to North West Pirate Stations.

Back to School Walking Challenge

This is the first Challenge I've set myself. The aim is to build a bit more exercise into my day, without it costing a great deal of time or money. O's school is only across the road so it's not much exercise taking him there every day. But, I could walk a little more after dropping him off/before picking him up. I did this a little bit last term, this term I will commit to doing it regularly.

So the challenge is:

    I will walk for 20 - 30 mins every day, either after I have dropped O at school or before I pick him up in the afternoon. I will do this on a minimum of 3 days out of 5 each week, and this will be in addition to my other exercise commitments (1 each of aquarobics, belly dancing, swimming) not instead of.

Saturday Log

Here we go again.

    Breakfast: asda shreddies w. s-s milk

    Mid-morning while reading the paper: half a mars bar (cut into cubes to make it last longer :angel:)

    Lunch: chickpea & feta salad with cucumber in pitta bread, banana

    Tea: Pasta with tomato sauce, veggie sausage & a little cheese, banana & grapes with ice-cream

    Evening snack: pitta bread with peanut butter & cucumber

    Drinks: 2 mugs coffee (no milk), 3 x 750ml water, 2 mug tea (with s-s milk), 1 glass red wine

Today I shall be mostly installing SP2. I've been putting it off (and ignoring the nagging the automatic update thingy is giving me about it) because I've read stuff about problems and conflicts and glitches with it. But Jack says I probably should get it.

Daily Review
food ~ ok (tho need to watch out for evening snack attacks); fruit ~ 2 pieces (1.5 banana, some grapes); exercise ~ 0; water ~ 2.5 l; booze ~ 1 glass red wine

Friday, September 03, 2004


I showed Trin my photos of my best friend C's art, and she asked to see more. With what is happening in Beslan today, it seems horribly appropriate.

A bit about C and her work

C is my best friend. She has a huge artistic talent, which was frustrated for years as she slogged away in a souless graphic design job to pay the rent. Last year she gave up her job and freelanced her arse off to raise the fees to follow her dream to study tapestry weaving. This summer she graduate from West Dean with a post-graduate diploma in fine art tapestry weaving, with distinction. These works form part of her final show.

As you'd expect for an artist, C is a visual person and expresses her self with her art, not her words. I'll try my best to explain what I understand was behind these works. (Apologies for the quality of the words and pictures, I'm neither an art critic nor a photographer).

Damaged Posted by Hello

Damaged is in 3 parts, as you can see. I think it's about war and conflict, displacement and refugees, land and freedom. Actually it's in 4 parts as there is also a video. Each piece is an original tapestry woven by C, and the video shows them being shot, burned and slashed.

Shot Posted by Hello

He who saves one life saves the world entire is a Jewish saying, which was said of Oskar Schindler. Shot also commemorates the young men who were shot at dawn during WW1, accused of 'cowardice' and 'desertion'.

Burned Posted by Hello

The writing woven into Burned is a recipe for bread. During the Bosnian conflict, people waiting in a bread queue in Sarajevo were killed when it was bombed.

Slashed Posted by Hello

The numbers on Slashed record people killed in conflicts. The trunk is an army trunk, I think, but also it could be a suitcase for the possessions of a displaced person. At the exhibition, there was a large pile of suitcases near by, speaking of refugees and also of the piles of suitcases the Nazis took off of people entering the death camps. Slashed was literally slashed, with a very large sword, in an ancient wood.

One thing you don't see here, which was for me the most moving part of Damaged, was a picture of the 3 pieces wrapped in white sheets or bags, like body bags, lying lined up in a field.

I also want to show you this, which C thinks is her best work so far, and which has been accepted for an international exhibition. The photos either side are of C's hands, wearing her Nana's wedding ring which she always wears.

Always and Forever Posted by Hello

Whatever your cause, some things are never justified. Posted by Hello

Friday Food Log

Yawn yawn food log again. Yeah but no but right this is my blog and i'll log if I want to so shut up right. This food logging seems to help me keep focussed on what I eat, and I need that at the mo.

    Breakfast: 2 weetabix with s-s milk, banana

    Late morning snack: handful brazil nuts

    Lunch: 2 poached eggs on 2 slices wholemeal toast (with sunflower spread)

    Afternoon snack: apple and peanut butter

    Tea: pizza (home-made by R, sweetcorn & onion topping and not much cheese), nectarine

    Drinks: 1.5 x mug coffee (no milk), 2 x mug tea (with s-s milk), 2 x 750 ml water

Daily Review
food ~ ok; fruit ~ 3 pieces (banana, apple, nectarine); exercise ~ 30 mins walking; water ~ 1.5 l; booze ~ 1 glass red wine

Neither up nor down

Weigh-in this morning, and I have lost 0. Also gained 0. Which is not bad considering I lost it for a while earlier in the week. I was off-plan for a few days there but I think I'm back on the wagon now.

Some lessons learnt:
  • watch the treats! ice-cream one day is OK but not ice-cream one day followed by chocolate desert the next followed by ... you get the idea
  • I need to keep working on the 'comfort eating' urges and find other ways to deal with the negative feelings that drive me to fat'n'carbs
  • Keep on doing exercise, even when I don't feel good or have blown my eating plan sky high. I usually enjoy it, and at least I'm doing myself some good
  • Just because I lose it for a while, doesn't mean I can't pick myself up, dust myself off and keep on doing the right thing most of the time

R is back home hurrah (and says my face looks 'a little slimmer maybe' [1]), it's nearly the weekend, I feel fine, so things are looking up. But that I keep on thinking of the children held hostage in Russia, and what it must be like for their parents. There are now reports that a battle has erupted. Can only hope for them all.

[1] he is pathologically honest and cannot do those 'little white lies' we girlies like to hear

Thursday, September 02, 2004

Ooooh Betty

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Belly dancing annoyances:

  • people who've been to Turkey on their holidays and bought the fanciest, noisiest coin belts they can find
  • people who drench themselves in a vat of cheap perfume (which then cross-infects me when I have to make a pair with them)
  • tall, lithe Turkish women in tiny tops and short skirts who can shimy and slink in all the right places

OK so the last one's just jealousy talking.

Got v hot and sweating at belly dancing so am now running lovely bath to soak in, featuring Dreamy Candy Bubble Bath Bar. It smells just like Creamola Foam that our granny used to give us when we visit her in Scotland. Memories :sigh:

Daily Review
food ~ ok; fruit ~ 3 pieces (banana, apple, grapes); exercise ~ belly dancing; water ~ 2 l; booze ~ 0

What I'll be watching on TV tonight

Mission Accomplished: Langan in Iraq - BBC2 11.20pm-12.50am tonight.

Sean Langan makes brilliant 'behind the lines' documentaries. His 2001 'Langan Behind the Lines' series include films made in Afghanistan and Iraq. He exposes the repressive nature of regimes, while getting to know people as individuals. He also made 'Travels of a Gringo', looking at the impact of globalisation on the lives of people in south America.

food log again

OK. Today feels a bit better but still I can feel that things could slip and slide, so here's another food log to keep me focused.

    Breakfast: 3 weetabix with s-s milk, banana

    Mid morning snack: handful brazils, nectarine

    Lunch: chopped apple, feta cheese, grapes

    Dinner: veggie frankfurters, smashed potato, peas

    Drinks: half a cafetiere of coffee (no milk), 3 cups of tea (with s-s milk), 2 x 750 ml water

    Evening snack: apple & s-f peanut butter

    Another evening snack: popcorn (home popped with a little oil)

    Late night snack (curse you insomnia): 2 weetabix with s-s milk

Wednesday, September 01, 2004


Every gunshot I hear is like a shot into my heart

It's hard to feel good about a world with Beslan and Darfur in it.

Daily Review
food ~ not bad; fruit ~ 3 pieces (banana, nectarine, apple); exercise ~ aquarobics, short bike ride, playing with O; water ~ 1 l; booze ~ 2 glasses wine

food log

I don't usually do this, but in the interests of keeping myself focused, here's what I've eaten so far today:

    Breakfast: 50g asda shreddies with semi-skimmed milk, banana

    Shivery-bite (post swimming snack): handful fair trade brazil nuts

    Lunch: 2 poached eggs on 2 slices wholemeal toast (with sunflower spread), nectarine

    Tea: green salad, chickpea & feta salad, pitta bread, fruit

    Evening Snack: apple & peanut butter

Also killed 3 birds with one stone this morning - took O swimming and we went by trailer bike, so
1) met aim of doing something active with O
2) got some exercise myself, short bike ride plus some playing in pool
3) got out of house instead of sitting round moping
Now just gotta get self together to do some work that I'll get paid for grr.

White rabbits, white rabbits, white rabbits

It's just what you have to say on the first day of a month. It's supposed to bring luck, who knows why? Anyway, another day another diet. Starting back on track today, fingers crossed touch wood white rabbits.