Thursday, November 11, 2004

the great pretender

Another day of Bad Eating yesterday. Somewhere around 3, 000 cals consumed ffs. So I'm feeling like this blog is a bit of a fraud and I should rename it to somethign like "Clazza's rambling about the first thing that pops into her head and occassionally making half-arsed efforts to eat less lard Blog" .

So many other diet bloggers are doing great things, working hard and making real changes, I feel like an imposter. I'm not keeping to a proper eating plan, I can't (won't?) stop binge eating, I do some exercise but don't keep to my targets, I'm gaining wieght not losing it.

I'm not saying any of this looking for sympathy or whatever. I know what I'm doing wrong. I know that I am not putting the necessary mental effort into changing things. I suppose I have to work out how much I want to change, and if I want it enough to do the work.

So, I'll keep on rambling about Stuff for now, but am not sure if weight loss will be a central focus for a while ...

Other news: in 1986, the BraggMeister recorded the song 'Help Save the Youth of America', which includes the lines: This is the land of opportunity, and there's a monkey trial on TV. I cannot begin to express how profoundly depressing it is that 18 years later, there are still monkey trials taking place in the US. It's the kind of thing that we Brits snigger at, roll our eyes and say 'only in America, eh?'.

If only. Creationism and biblical fundamentalism are being promoted at state-funded schools in my own country, and our prime minister has refused to take sides. No wonder him and Georgie are best mates.

Oh and while I'm bush-bashing (and why not?), I really don't want the world's great superpower run by someone suffering from sleep deprivation.

Pandas (and others) apologise to the world ...

6 comments:

Jude said...

Poor pandys they did their best

Trinity said...

I still loves you xxx

M@rla said...

Sometimes the only progress you can make towards a dream is just HAVING it. Don't give up and keep blogging! If we're even trying 10% of the time, we're better off than tossing the whole thing out.

Jude said...

ooh ooh you should do this

http://www.aspire.org.uk/channelswim/

Sarah said...

Clarrie, please don't give up. Our priorities change sometimes, and motivation ebbs and flows. Please be kind to yourself, and don't think of yourself as an "imposter." You've fought and won many, many battles, and maybe you're just tired for the moment. As for blogging about "diet" stuff, well there are no rules about who gets to do that....if you're disappointing yourself right now and would rather not share publicly, well then that's just fine, we'll love to hear about other things because you rock. (See Monday's comments for more on how much you rock.) But if you're thinking that you shouldn't blog about dieting because you're not losing weight, that's utter hogwash. It's a process, and I for one would love to hear anything you're comfortable saying on that topic or any other. Much love to you, you goddess.

Stef said...

Don't give up, Clarrie... but also know that you can't force the lifestyle change required for weight loss. And by that I mean that you have to be completely ready and willing or it just won't work. You need a 100% commitment to really succeed but it's okay if you don't have it yet... all in your own time, I say. And I really enjoy reading your ramblings so don't worry about the blog at all :D